ignorance is a bliss and i kid you not.

 And here it is, once again. :D

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In January I caught a purse-snatcher who stole mightytomato 's purse (30 points). Last Wednesday I helped jeannetteyeo see the light (8 points). In November I helped ckris hide a body (-173 points). In September I bought porn for chasingheartss (-10 points). Last Monday I gave thirteenstops a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-150 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, freespirit-dom

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Merry Christmas everyone! I'm at midnight mass, so I can't be posting this, but I have mad skillz woo.

alot of things are taken for granted till the status quo makes for change. so here's sincere deep gratitude for all the years of change you have tolerated and accepted. strangely, looking back, i didn't realise how much you must have accepted till i'm placed in your position now. in retrospect, i see the times where on a conscious level, i never noticed how harsh i must have sounded. so again, thank you, my dearest dearest friend, for being "the wind beneath my wings" all these years, and now, i think it's my turn to take a step back, and accept your status quo and it's make for change.

15 mins to the eve of Christmas.
:)

It's been a great year, full of unexpected twists and turns. Last Christmas, I'd never have seen myself being where I am this Christmas, all thanks to God :)

Gloria in excelsis deo

Dexter: I wonder if Rita is looking at the same moon, at the same moment...

It's finally the damn holidays, but I keep on thinking about what I have to do. I can't really seem to enjoy it properly!

I spent the last 2 days with people I really like... I acted for the FSV (Film, Sound & Video) kids on Monday, they had to endure an hour of my fake sobbing and sniffing, cheers to them ahaha. Then slept in til really late, got a haircut and my specs done. Bb and I discovered a rly nice (but cold) rooftop in NTU with the tuas harbour as a background view, talked for 3 hours or so, thinking about what 2009 meant to us and what we were grateful for this year. I think 2009 was a good year. :)

Gotta head down to the east for Ju's partyyyy, it's going to be a good night!

I give up.

an update of the wish list - in no order of preference.

 

1) a house. for ourselves - not found.

2) the selected lot of jap dramas which ts video doesn't carry! WHY?! my heaven's coins ii!!! or pride! or beautiful life! why?! - definitely not able to be found.

3) climbing shoes - for rock climbing. duh.

4) nike pegasus trail! .

5) wii console

6) rayman raving rabbids 2 for wii

7) a good massage/rub

8) ped package renewed at the strip

9) the extremely pretty calvin klein black slip that i saw in taka today

10) nicholas spark's latest book - the last song

11) tracy chevalier's latest book - remarkable creatures

12) a pair of heels to strut in for the off work holidays! - wound up being a purchase for the wedding dinner.

13) somehow. a band with a row of diamonds. - but also realised that quite difficult to find.

14) the miu miu bag that i have just been looking at ever since july. - however, also realised that $1.8k on a bag that i can't carry to work everyday, IS kind of pointless. but it's SO PRETTY!

15) corelle diningware. - am really pleased with my new taka credit card.

16) audrey niffenegger's latest book - her fearful symmetry

17) -the- violin that well. costs $1.7k. and sheepishly, i'll admit that #14 is higher on the list.

18) a dress watch with a black leather strap. and a rectangular face like this fossil watch... that is absolutely perfect.

19) the lego fire brigade set that is... pretty much unavailable in singapore unless you are willing to pay for the insane set found at serene centre (the one that's -not- direct from europe and hence more expensive)

 

i can only wait patiently. (or save patiently)

 

but well. the very best i'll say is. #10,#11, #16 would be the BEST bundled package ever.

and #18.

 

in the last appearance of the wish list, the hope was bonus.

now that bonus is a pathetic squeak and i know better than to spend money on self. after all. there's always more satisfaction buying gifts for your loved ones than spending all your money on self.

 

wish lists are... well. just meant for wishing i guess.

 

oh look at the time. zzzz.

Its been more than a year now and singlehood has got me going up and down along the way like an endless roller coaster. I forget to breathe at times. Or I forget to hold the bars securing my legs in place that I get yanked from side to side round the sharp turns. Sometimes I feel the ride slowing down for a bit when it approaches a steep, uphill ascent. And then suddenly plunges down and derails into nothingness. A freefall into nowhere. If I'm lucky, I find myself equipped with a parachute. But there are times I hit rock bottom without anything to cushion the fall. I can only take so much. I can only pick up and keep so much of the pieces that break off me for each downfall. I wish I had something that kept me together, kept me settled and kept me composed. Something that filled up the voids that I can't fill myself.

Would you catch me if I'd fall?
Or would I be breaking my bones?

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That was heart wrenching to watch. The final whistle was heartbreaking.
Bill Shankly would be so upset. 50 years from the day he took over. 50 years ago, when Liverpool was quite crap, to be honest.
And Shanks took over. And the rest is history.

Sadly, it looks like that's all it's destined to be. History.

But nevertheless, we will walk on with hope.
Because that's what being Liverpool is about.
YNWA.

i think all reindeers probably are thinking of that. talk about having a rod stuck at your ass.

"at the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet" - plato

with music of course, started the "genius" on 2 of my most calming songs in itunes ( silent night by corrinne may+ cannonball by damien rice), calming songs = calm mel = productive mel I LIKE.

I've been thinking more about the course switch, and it seems rather clear cut to me. I was doing editing the other day, and somehow it didn't feel like work to me, it felt like something I could do, (be frustrated and grumpy) but at the same time really really enjoy it. That probably says alot. :/

ahaha it's back to more study!

Thinking about this concept of unrequited love is very overwhelming. And i have realised that people who are gladly in situations whereby the other person doesn't love them back, are actually the most courageous people on earth.
The feeling awakens life in you. This grief that you feel from this lack of love, masks the true happiness and liberation that is within. Because these people understand what love really is. What it means to love. And to have the capacity to love somebody who doesn't actually love you back. Maybe I have gone mad over the past days ever since my little stint outside the dining hall at Choice Retreat House. And perhaps his words really cut me so damn deep, I haven't really been able to breathe since. But you know, I'm actually okay. I will still stand by whatever I have said to him that night, that I, indeed, am more alive than he is. Now, I know what love really means. To have the capacity to just, want to love. When nothing else matters, and nothing else really doesn't signifies anything anymore. From here onwards, I know, I will die a very very happy person. Simply because, I have actually lived.

And one day, somebody else will come along, just like how he did, and take my breath away, like how the both of them did. So quickly, and never giving back, but this time, it will be different. This time, leaving is no longer an option to be taken.

Hope, is where the heart lives. Where He lives.

someone, anyone.
i dont care what your religion is
can you please pray for my grand dad.
Critical condition. heard hes gonna die.
im not sure whats going on anymore.

Back from christmas party and CSA retreat, and i'm feeling great. The Good Lord has touched me in so many ways that I can't even begin to list, but yes, I will try. Thank God for the wonderful ExCo that I've been blessed to work with. Its a great feeling when you actually bond with people in a mere 3 days, when you have been working with them for an entire sem. It's great to see us getting so much more familiar with each other, and growing so much closer as a family. For the wonderful reconciliation session that we had at the retreat, again I'd like to say... Fr. Arro (if thats how his last name is spelt) is The Holy Man. People should be running after him to be in his shadows or to touch his robes and be healed please. During confession, he cupped my face, held my hands and I broke down. Omg. HOLY MAN. And despite some grievances that I can't seem to let go of, God forbid, I really had alot of fun. So THANK YOU GOOD GOD YOU'RE GREAT.

Met up with the YPDG today to swim (which I didn't manage to because of my meeting with Char) and then we headed down to town to play L4D2. Best game played ever, because it was more funny than exciting. Most of the time, all we said were "Omg who shoot me?!", "OMG DAMN PAW", "SHOOT!", "OMG SOMEBODY SAVE ME!", "Hellooooo, I'M HERE LAH~" and lastly "THE CHOPPER THE CHOPPER!" After which, jer headed home, and me z and jes went to liang court for our cheapo dinner. One plate of jap curry and one portion of potato salad for the win!~